Well, I got it done. I spent 2 full days building my babies their nursery. And to break my own arm patting myself on the back..it is gorgeous..It’s no “Father of the Bride part 2” nursery, but for what I had to work with, it is perfect. I am not telling Lisa any details about the nursery.. NO details, got it?? I did shoot a video of it and will happily share the link via email. But no one is to tell Lisa any details. I have never been able to hold a secret from Lisa. Christmas Gifts, Birthday gifts, I could never resist either giving it to her early, or hounding her by asking “want to know what it is?” or “want a hint?” until she gave in.
But this one, I’m keeping. I want her first look at the nursery to be the final realization that we have our babies, they are home, and we are a family.
I sat in the nursery last night for over an hour and imagined our babies at home, and their maturing to toddlers, thier first crawling, first steps, etc.. It really tugged on the heartstrings and made me realize exactley what we have done. And I couldn’t be happier. Lisa had often worried that I was less than excited about this whole process, that I was only going through the motions. And for a small bit, it was true. We had failed so many times, that my heart just wasn’t up to more disappointment, or to seeing my beautiful wife hurt like she would when we had a negative result to an attempt to get pregnant. It’s not fun to see someone you love deal with the pain of knowing she can’t carry children.
Well Lisa, honey, we did it. And I am bursting with excitement and joy. I love you, I miss you and will see you soon. I’m proud of us. From what you’ve told me of our daughters, we done good!
Update: I asked Susan, my wonderful co-worker, if it was fair to keep the nursery from Lisa. And she said that Lisa has been gone for over a week, has been living in a hotel and could probably use a little piece of home. And I think she is right. So here is the nursery, for all to see. Lisa, I hope you like it. I’m sure Riley and Kelsey will feel right at home in it.
So much for will power, ‘eh? I melted faster than a sno-cone in July…